"Why am I feeling drawn to this place?" I just came to visit friends. Yet every time I visit my heart is being pulled in a million directions. "What am I supposed to do?" These are my thoughts as I woke up July 6th. I head to church with my friends and cry all during worship, later that evening as I drive to whole foods, and I called my older brother crying. I cried all day (I feel so lame saying how much I cried but whatever...). It was evident that my heart was being moved. I did not want to address these feelings. A looming sense of loss covered me like a blanket. I sat on the roof of whole foods looking upon a city with a lot of questions and prayers. After eating my ice cream and reading some of a book, I left whole foods and headed home. I headed home knowing that I was going to move to this city. As scary as the moment was, I also felt a deep sense of peace.
This past year has been hard yet so beautiful for me. In spite of that, I realize how much growth needed to take place in my heart and life in order to be prepared for what God has for me in this next season.
On September 15th, I found a note in my journal from June 2011 that said "I think I am supposed to move to Austin but I am not sure when." I forgot all about that note and moved on with my life and moved to Houston. I began working for Arrow Child and Family Ministries. A year and a half later, I resigned, and started my job at MD Anderson. It was at MD Anderson that I realized I did not have a passion for corporate america. I have a passion for families and adoption. I am a social worker. That's my thing. I needed to return to doing something I was passionate about.
Thirty minutes after finding that journal entry on September 15th, I was emailed a job posting by a friend at my old company. Immediately applied for a case management position in the Austin area. Five minutes later they called to set up a phone interview. A few days later, I got the job and gave my two weeks notice, just like that.
I walked away from everything comfortable.
Everything that was set up for me.
I walked away from a successful career in corporate america.
None of this was in my plan and trust me I am a planner. My room may look like a nightmare most days but my plans are laid out and my binders are organized. This is the first time in my life I have needed to exercise radical obedience. What an adventure it has already been and I haven't moved yet.
So here I am, completely humbled.
Not even trying to figure anything out anymore.
I am going.
Houston I have about 7 more days to soak you up.
Since I am not far, this is merely see you later. Not goodbye.